BOREDOM HELLO!

I am so FUCKING BORED!

It's been one of those days again... slow... uneventful....


BAHHHHH!


Well, at least I have my GRAPES

I Seriously like grapes. Like... alot.....

GRAPES!

Also nice are those other fruit things.... uhhhh.. mangoes!

I Seriously like mangoes! Like.... alot

But not as much as

GRAPES!

Imagine if someone made Grape cake.

That would be pretty genius



GRAPES!!!!!

The day before.

Didn't sleep well at all last night. And tomorrow it's MPYO camp. Damn.

Not that it's not gonna be fun or anything, but I'm dreading the fact that we're gonna have to spend 1+6, 16 days away. I'm sleepy. I don't think I can handle this one. Plus... I have a weird feeling that something bad is going to happen. But that's just me. Slightly paranoid.

I am quite sleepy. Like. Really quite sleepy.

It's the post performance feeling. The one I actually usually get after mpyo.

It's annoying and quoting Emil's wise words " I WANT A SAMMICH1!1!⁄!!11!!!!"

The sandwich of course being a metaphor some sort of satisfying treat filled with cold meat and lettuce.

Parliament Funkadelic

Pretty cool. P-Funk by Parliament Funkadelic

Sudden Urge

I have this undying sudden urge to talk about

This album.
I think it's pre-tty fucking genius.
Especially the ending. It kinda leaves you begging for more. And even though I've probably listened to it hundreds of times, it still sounds genius.

Bah where did all the genius songwriting ol' Ben Folds had in those days go? His new stuff's not bad, but it'll never come close to this. Gah. JESUS! IT'S SO FUCKING GOOD!

Saturday night doodle.

So I for some reason or other really needed to clear my head this night. And what better way to get things out of your head than a good two hour doodle on your computer followed by a blogpost? Well, there are a few, but I don't have access to a bungee cord and a cliff to jump off of. So here's what came out.

Shallowpuddleman

Fear him as he creates puddles just deep enough to wet your sandals and suede shoes, creating major discomfort and godawful odours.

Damn him.

Emo camel blogger.

It was supposed to be a ghost, then it became a pennguin, then it became something in between but doesn't look like either now and the disappointment has set in...

A chinese noodle pirate. Yeah. Not sure whether he pillages villages by the sea of their noodle supply or

he makes the noodles,

gives them to the villages,

Then pillages them.

A drawing of Alison's. She decided to join me after a few drawings which made way for some AWESOME AND GROUNDBREAKING COLLABORATION WORK THAT GOT DELETED BECAUSE YOU AND YOUR EYES WEREN'T READY FOR IT.

The wolfie was supposed to be a cougar at first. No idea how she managed that transformation.

Forgot to flip this one round. But you get the picture.

Uh. yeah. It's the tenth annual underwater prom from way back in the sixties.

 

Basically that's it. Did wonders for my mind-health. Also got rid of residue caffeine from the coffee I had earlier.

 

I am bored

I am pretty damn bored. Woke up at 3 something and I have nothing to do.

Yeah...... soooo uh

yeah

ummm

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booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooored

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Haha it turns out I've been tagged by Lu Ee! 

 

BE patient with me, as I'm not in a very funny mood today!

  
Instructions: remove 1 question from below and add in your personal questions, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people on your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. 

1) At what age do you wish to marry?

Whoa uhhh it would be ideal to marry in my mid 20s so like around 25, 26. But that's not a funny answer. Ah well, I'm just getting warmed up.

 
2) If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?

Chances are I'd say something along the lines of "Hold me tight like the peel of a Mandarin Orange weeks before it is ripe enough to be peeeeeled".... though I would say "hi" before that, probably.

 
3) What do you feel like saying now?


"can I not do anything today, please!? i wwant too staay hoome and noot dostufff"

 
4) Where is the place you want to go the most and with whom?

A cruiseship named The Soupy Grandpa with all the people I don't hate with my intestinal Juices!

5) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

*edit* I was checking this just now and i realised, because i just copied and pasted the questions from luee's blog, i accidentally left her answer to this question here so i was apparently wishing to be famous and pretty. Yup*edit*

6) Do you believe you can survive without money?

I don't so much believe i can survive as much as I think I'd probably cry myself to death. I don't really spend that much, but the thought of having no money would likely hurl my emotions into the sea- The vast sea of despairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

7) What are you afraid to lose the most?

Losing in general is pretty much the worst thing that will ever happen to me.

8) If you win 1 million, what would you do?

Yeah. I'd probably spend the money? On stuff? Maybe start my own chain of laksa restaurants?

9) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

In that situation, I should. Shouldn't I?

 
10) List out the good points of the person who tagged you.

Luee: She's got the greatest smile in the whole damn world! Just look at it! It makes you want to... to.... I don't know. Do something quite outrageous.

She's a really nice person!

11) What am i doing now?

Looking at a year old box of tissue paper.

12) Which type of person do you hate the most?

People who think that they're better than everyone and mistreat thembecause of it, but still manage to have a fucking huge amount of friends who don't do any bloody thing to change him/her! Those people are really.... just thinking about people like that makes me wanna do uhhhh.......stuff.

13) What is your ambition?

To not waste my life away doing something I really wouldn't enjoy doing. 

14) What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?

When he/she whips out a whip and starts whipping stuff.

 
15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

Music and ahem....then friends and family then food.

16) Are you a shopaholic or not?

Not really at all no.

17) What do you see when you look into a mirror?

My disgusting hair. It's got a life of it's own. It won't bloody look good! EVER! WHY!!!!????

18) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?

I just tell anybody, maybe even moreso people I don't like. It doesn't really matter. I like making my problems their problems as well.

19) What is your desired age to lose ur virginity.

Exactly what Lu Ee said: what kind of question is this!??

20) How old am i?

16? Should be. Unless everyones been lying to me again.

Now that wasn't.. uhh..... too.... easy. I tag whatever. Yup.

This may seem a little farfetched

I'm sure everyone's heard of the new facebook. And how many are quite frustrated with the fact that it's quite messy, and they haven't fixed it.

But what if... hear me out here.....

 

It's bad ON PURPOSE?

 

Think about it? It could be one of those social media experiments to show how we've become so dependant on Facebook that we aren't willing to give it upeven though it's become crap?

 

Not that I'm saying we should stop the use of it (i don't think any of us can manage that at the moment).... but think about it! Isn't it creeepy?

Again and again.

So the current excitement/anger/distress Malaysia's now in has compelled me to do a post about the country's current state of affairs.

 

Actually, it's quite distressing, you know?

 

Today at 1.24 pm, Raja Petra was taken into custody under the ISA, no less. This, probably with the reason that he's a threat to national security.

 

This, while all the BN Members of Parliament are gleefully spending their time researching agricultural...... no...... State of the art agricultural methods in a Taiwanese holiday destination.

 

This, after the (former?) Bukit Bendera Division Chief of UMNO was given, not even a slap on the wrist, but a gentle carress as punishment (3 years suspension)

 

This, with Mahathir rejoining UMNO after vowing not to until Badawi goes, and therefore retracting his word..... which is sooooooooooo NOT like a Malaysian at all nuh uh...

 

This, while there's infighting going on within BN component parties for god know what reason.

 

This, while it looks like Pakatan isn't doing much to ensure their takeover on the 16th of September.

 

This, while it looks like the Government has gone into self destruct mode, playing the fucking race card and is indefinitely going to threaten that there will be another massacre likened to May 13th, thus scaring people back into the "safety" of their communities and destroying whatever progress this country's people have made since the last general elections.

 

This, while investors are pulling their money out of Malaysia because of its political and economical instability under the current ruling coalition, which will cause major increase in cost of food, basic needs, and whatever fucking thing we need to live.

 

Yup... All this is kind of worrying, no?

A post about my current state of sleepiness

So I decided to post about my current state of sleepiness.

  

Agh.

Don't feel like staying at home today.... There's something about today that is nudging me to not stay home and do nothing, as I usually do on Sundays. 

It may be the boredom. 

Yep, that.

Ah the wonders of time

Ah, time! How fast you do move! Unless you do not really exist and are merely another man conceived element used to keep humanity's understanding of the universe, however scarce, possible. In which case, you probably don't have any legs like you ought to (or at least I think you ought to, seeing as how fast you move).

But enough of this not really funny joke making.

It was two whole weeks ago, when we went to the dvorak ninth concert at the dfp! Already two weeks!

It's been a whole week since the chamber concert at PERMATA, Bangi!

God Damnit, why the fuck is time moving so fast?!

Before you know it, the year will be coming to an end! Heck, if I'm unlucky, people will only be reading this at the end of 2008 checking to see if I've posted anything fo the New Year!

But seriously, I'm not really liking the fact that time is moving this fast. Jia Rong's and Myles' recent or impending departure to the states and the UK respectively has kinda beat me into doing some introspection again! This time, I did see, a more forseeable and immediate future, where not only my friends (James, Su Yin, and Jebat first I would imagine) but even I will leave to find my own place in the world, however insignificant or significant it will be.

I say this, yet sometimes it strikes me that I don't appreciate today enough. With my uncontrollable urges to impersonate a sloth around the house, my concentrating too little on things I care and don't care about, or even my afternoon naps!

Ah it seems that whenever I post on this little space on the web, it's about change and time and loss and shit like that. Sometimes Megaman.

Back to less serious and irritating to read stuff,

MPYO CAMP WAS AWESOME! It would have been more so if it wasn't for the lugging around of my cello to opposite ends of the training centre and the mosquitoes and the incredibly horrible victuals which we were somehow forced to eat.

Yeap. That's it

It's fine.

I guess.

Just found out that Aaron and Adelyn are leaving MPYO.

It's fine, i guess.

That makes three people including Myles who aren't going to be around during the next camp.

Obviously nobody can stay forever, yeah?

It's fine, i guess.

Yeah, I should be enjoying the fact that most of us are still here.

Having said that, how long more until everybody leaves?

What become of the bonds we've formed?

Will our memories be all that we have left?

It's not fine, actually.

It sucks.

big time.

FIRST POST OF 2008 WTF

Yes, I've finally brought myself to post something here after a more than a month long hiatus!
The last month's been a fast one, with school, lessons, and practicing and lots of other shit*. So I guess I should talk about whatever I've been up to recently.


So I started in Beaconhouse Sri Inai last month and whoa! It's the complete opposite of Wesley! I think it's safe to say that anyone who hates it at Wesley would think of Baconhouse as some gift from the heavens meant to rid the world of all sadness and misery. And even though sadness and misery seem to be around the same thing, it still does a fucking good job. My one concern is that it's too relaxed. Lots of the people there are... dare I say it... less than hardworking. There's no one to copy homework off of. Though there aint much homework to begin with.


In a way it's kind of refreshing, but it's weird to be among the most hardworking people in class for once. Of course, the best part of this place, the thing that makes me heart it so much are the teachers!! They are among the best teachers you can get! Bad thing is, they teach really really slowly. Yeah. Real slow. Which is good until you realise that it took them a whole month to get through the first chapter of chemistry which is the INTRODUCTION TO CHEMISTRY! THE FUCKING INTRODUCTION! Gyargungh...


Started lessons with Steve last month too. Been practicing like semi-mad. Well of course I can't compare the time I put in with the time that's been put in by Jebat lately, but argh! He's given me so much to practice! Popper, Duport, Brahms' Sonata**, and Goltermann concerto**! ARGH! Plus yesterday I discovered a crack in my cello! Geez it's probably gonna be fine, but can't really stop from worrying. Sigh.


So right now, I have to figure out some way to make this post seem longer than it actually is. Mainly because I seem to post some of the shortest shit among all of the blogs I read. Somehow, I'm gonna have to improve on my blogging power because if I don't.... Malu only la... Ah! I know! I'll just skip two lines in between each paragraph, creating the illusion of more body! Dylan, you fucking genius.

*no such thing
**not the whole thing, but still!

The year that is 2007 (for the next six hours)

I don't know bout you guys, but i think that 2007 was one great year. It's probably been the most eventful year I've had for a long time. It's probably the first year that I've actually done stuff outside school.

You see.

I probably don't enjoy school as much as the average student. In fact, most of the crappiest days in this year would probably have the word "school" printed all over it. The past two years especially... It's been a very weird journey full of not fitting in and envying the fucking bastards who actually do.

Then again, I met some really cool people at school this year, too. I mean, KK, Ga Joon, Brian, What the hell would school have been without you guys and everyone else whom I spent time with?

It would be even shittier. That's what.

As far as academics are concerned, I don't think I've learned anything worthwhile this whole year in school... No offense to all of my good teachers*, but I can't think of one thing taught this year that actually helped or could possibly help me in the years that will come. I mean... what's the point in learning history that's been tainted with by irresponsible, greedy and selfish bastards?

And as for the PMR and the test results... All I can say is fuck them**. What really matters is how we deal with the shittiness in handling the unexpected and/or expected hits and/or misses. It's certainly more valuable than getting some cheap A for some pointless test paper. I mean, what's the use of being the top frog in the well***?

For me, personally, the learning done this year was done elsewhere.

Which brings me to my year in the MPYO. Probably the most fun I've had in ages. Unlike others, though, I haven't come out of it with an insane encyclopedic knowledge of classical music. I have however, come to appreciate the thrill of making music, and enjoying it with friends.

Friends.

Yes. Really cool people. I mean. Right now, thinking back to the first music camp, I would never have imagined how cool people could actually be, from meeting Myles and Alix on the first day while looking for food in Tronoh, to meeting the rest of the tribe over the duration of the next few camps. These sorts of friendships, I hope to keep and/or rekindle if any loss of contact or falling out has occurred.

Seriously.

For the simple reason that these people are kinda cool. Never have I felt so at home with people outside my family. Heck, sometimes I feel awkward talking to my dad. I don't know, maybe it's because I can say anything to those guys and (hopefully) get away with it. Or maybe we can just relate to each other easier, being of roughly the same age. I won't over think it though, in fear of ruining the whole thing.

I was really lucky to get Margaret as a cello teacher this year, too. She really taught me a lot. It was the first time for a very long time that I enjoyed going for a lesson. Whether it was full of those damn Popper studies or those really fun Bach movements.

The lessons left me feeling, how you say, good. Beyond cello, she became a guru of sorts, teaching me lessons of life through very long, time consuming stories about her experiences as a cellist and as an adolescent, growing up.

So.

To sum it all up.

2007 has been the shortest and the longest year of my life.

Full of

• Really fun stuff
• Really cool people
• Really nice music

Basically really good things.

Also, when I think about it, I probably came out of 2007 a very different person than I was when it started.

Hopefully in a good way.

*not so many
**especially BM.
*** quote from RuroKen though used in a different context.

FUCK BM

What should I eat for breakfast tomorrow? more importantly, what are YOU gonna eat for breakfast for the next few days????????

This is a post.

FUUUUCK

This was the most fun mpyo thing yet.

Now it's back to normal life.

I'm not gonna do a whole write up on the tour, If you want one, go to Mister T(iki)'s* blog. He's an amazingly long winded blogger ( in a good, interesting way, that is**). This is basically my thoughts on the tour as a whole.

In a nutshell, the MPYO's first tour was. Extremely fun. I don't think many things will come close to compare with the experiences and friends I have in the orchestra. Seriously. From the hour long bus rides, to the sub-standard victuals, late night bitching to the grueling rehearsals, to the bath-less nights in the hotel. Yeap... fun...

The tour also brought me closer to some other people. I was hanging around Jebat more than usual (usually not at all so there's a big difference there). And I also discovered Adelyn wasn't an evil biatch. Haaha... I also feel a tad closer to James and have started to taking a liking to Eben. Yea... he's nice...

You know what I realise?

There are too many nice people in the MPYO... It's strangely unnatural. There may only be a couple of jackasses in the orchestra.... There may only be ONE jackass in the orchestra.The ratios are so out of proportion! In my soon to be former school, there are probably 3.5ja/m. ja being jackass m being metre. And the numbers increase as you walk closer to 3L. I wonder why***....

Jeez. So many people are leaving after the tour, or have already left, rather. Choong Yen and Beng Yew are leaving, making the Principal Clarinet and Bass positions empty. Even Nami, our lovable concert master's leaving to study law in Australia. There's no doubt that next year is gonna be a whole lot different from this year's mpyo.

I hope those sections are gonna have Battle Royale to pick the next leader. It should be fun to watch haha****...

SEGWAYYYYYY

So...
Uhhh....
The next MPYO thing is 3 months away.
It's not that far off.
I hope.

* this is a fucking lame joke
**damage control wtf
*** probably because the people at school are from very rich families who spoil them at every minute of the day. Whereas most of the orchestra members are probably from lower to upper middle class people who have been BROUGHT WITH SOME MANNERS AND BOUNDARIES
**** imagine Myles trying to kill Ket Wei.

I just wasted my time to post something on the damn blog.

Some people may think life gets more relaxed after the exams.

Some may think it'll be a big load off their backs.

Some people think it'll give them a chance to do more productive things like bake, practice or maybe, just maybe, even take up exercise (yeah right).

Obviously, I was wrong.

Because nothing changes the fact that the average Malaysian-Chinese but doesn't speak the language teenager, like myself is unmotivated and lazy and slothlike and pretty much a damn blotch on the face of humanity.

Humanity doesn't have a very good complexion I think.

So the real problem isn't about humanity. It's the fact that I haven't ben able to bring myself to do anything. Anything productive that is. The damn exams ended more than a week ago and all I've done is bloody played bloody megaman. 

.No, seriously.

Played bloody megaman and watched bloody tv. Bloody, bloody tv.

And I think that all of this mind draining pig swill has drained  my mind and turned it into pig swill. 

I'm not blaming tv or megaman or  anything. It's just that they're distracting my mind.

Seriously distracting. I mean, I've been playing megaman scenarios in my head before I sleep.

For example, my mind will envision a megaman level, and I'll replay it over and over again till I formulate the best tactic to get past an obstacle without damage. And if I don't, I just keep on the simulation until I do.

And then, I fucking played digimon. Bloody, bloody digimon.

It's a nice, fun game, but when you put it in the hands of an obsessive bastard perfectionist who only wants to get the fucking best digimon, it becomes as bad as damn heroine. 

I realised today that I don't really want to play playstation, I play because I can't bring myself to do anything that requires effort, But because of my damn obsessive behaviour, the playstation becomes more stressful than doing actual work.

Fact: I get more stressed over things that don't matter than over things that matter a lot.

Fact: I've bloody proofread (past tense) this post ten times already and if there are spelling 

mistakes when I post it, I'm gonna delete it or make up an excuse to reassure myself it wasn't 

my fault.

Who am I kidding? No one bloody reads my blog anyway.

No one even fucking knows I have a blog.

And by the way, I aint the most deep person in the world. I just rant to show off fake intelligence.

I don't know if it works though.

Damned hell.

What I need to do is stop playing playstation. yea. that's it. I can quit anytime I want.

Really.

All I need to do is find a new album that is really fucking gold and then lock myself in the room for awhile.

Thanks to Alison for correcting my sentence up there. 

Maybe I should get more sleep? No.

I've had more sleep than ever these holidays.

Maybe I just haven't been talking to anyone outside of my family for the past week. Not one person. It's crazy.

I need to find something to do.

Or I should stop acting like a spoiled ass and just get up and do something.

Either's fine.

yea basically that

HEYA GUYS!

Next week this time will be the exams.

BUT I'M NOT WORRIED NO NOT WORRIED AT ALL. THE STRESS BREAK DOWNS HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THE EXAMS.

I'm completely screwed I might add...

Yesterday at cikgu's we did a damned worksheet

I got ten wrong in the first 17 questions.

Fuck.

And just like the slime of society, I've been taking it out on other people, usually Alison.

I have been feeling crappy about this, don't worry.

So anyway...
Anyone who has been reading the papers should know about the first malaysian 'astronaut' to be sent into space!

The papers say that there are two candidates and they'll confirm who'll be the lucky new astronaut to be hurled into the dark unfriendly depths of nothingness that I like to call space in a month or two.

Real exciting stuff, no?


BUT GUESS WHAT!? AS USUAL THE MALAYSIAN GOVERNMENT HAS BEEN COMPLETELY HONEST WITH THE PEOPLE!!


Mom showed me something this morning.

It was on Aisehman

Turns out the candidate for the spacetrip has long been chosen.

But that's not the worst part.

They claim the candidates are certified astronauts.

But according to the NASwebsite he's just a "spacecraft passenger" guess what that is according to wikipedia? heh...